This past weekend I spent all my free time throwing things away. I know I've said this before but ever since Jay and I first put the plan in action to move our family to Oregon, I constantly look at everything in my house and ask the question, "Do I want to move that across the country?" Saturday I filled two trash bags with things I didn't want to move and I'm sure there are more to come.
I've been really optimistic this year about my goals and our impending move. That came to a crashing halt this morning.
Jay and I were discussing The Big Move, and we agreed it might be best to put it off a few more months, just to get our finances in better shape so that all aspects of the move are less stressful. We had planned to move this summer. We would like to move during the summer months so the kids school schedules aren't disrupted. So, that means we could be moving as late as summer of 2011. Ugh. This rips me apart inside because mentally and emotionally, I'm so outta here already. Everyday that I am alive here in Florida, seems like an eternity.
I'm definitely frustrated by this setback because I don't want to get complacent and continually put off the move until the conditions are "perfect." The way I see it, it's a move across the country with children and pets, the conditions are NEVER going to be perfect. But I also have to be realistic and I know that the move will be much easier with more money.
Of course there is always the option of pulling the kids out of school for a few weeks so that we can make the move when we are ready. But do I want to do that?
So that's where I'm at this morning. A little bit bummed. A little bit muddled. Trying to not drown it all with a mid morning glass of wine.