Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Change

This morning, after everyone went off to work and school, I put my daughter in her stroller and we went for a walk around the neighborhood. It wasn't my usual walking style which is fast and for exercise. It was slower, more deliberate. We stopped and looked at spiders and leaves and flowers. I let her out of her stroller to walk a bit on her own. It was a long walk. But peaceful.

My whole life, I have never been someone that "fit in." I've never had my own group that I distinctly felt a part of. It probably has a lot to do with the area of the country that I live in (sigh....the south), but when I look around, I don't see a lot of people that look like me. This has always been hard, even as an adult.

Last night, as I watched Barack Obama speak, I looked at the crowd. Thousands of faces, no two looking even remotely similar. For the first time in my life I felt that I didn't need to fit in. Change is definitely a good thing.

17 comments:

RANT: MOTHERHOOD UNCENSORED said...

Brick by brick. Block by block. Yes we can!

Maria Rose said...

Well put.

Aleta said...

I'm from the south as well, New Orleans. I don't know if people around me look similar to me, never thought of it that way, I suppose. I'm sorry you never felt a "right fit" ~ but as you said, we're all in the same boat. We're all a little different, yet we're all humans. We can hope for the best for changes to come.

melissa s. said...

well said. i like the description of your long, peaceful walk. very analogous to the path ahead for our nation, methinks.

Mrs Parks said...

SO true!

Enjoy the day and the days to come :)

Mari said...

I feel so calm, compared to the last few months! sigh.. Slept so well last night, I am so happy! I think we can make the world a better place for our children and mend our relationships around the globe.

BloomingAlmond said...

He's not my president and I felt the same... :)

Apron Thrift Girl said...

Your post gave me complete goosebumps. That is what I loved too, a sea of faces where everyone looked unique and beautiful.

Simbelmyne said...

I know exactly what you mean.
We were outside doing school. I could not be repressed into staying indoors.

CT said...

Well, I can relate to THAT! The world is an everchanging place, and while it WAS sort of a sore spot to me that I (bookworm, dreamer, idealist, strongtempered as I was) did not fit in with the popular crowd... I no longer care... I care about my family and friends and the things I love...surprisingly, I found myself part of a great crowd...

And I was eagerly anxious about the outcome too!!! lol! you would think it was my nation going through such changes... (we had our roller coaster already, thank you very much)

chiwuwu said...

Last night my friend and I went out. We were stunned to see the Australian reaction. In shops, in stores, in restaurants. Everywhere, people were joyous. People were celebrating.

Because through one man we saw a million dreams come true.

Posey said...

Sounds like a nice peaceful walk.

I also never FELT like I fit in with the in-crowd. Hopefully this change will bring us all together as ONE.

Tammie said...

thank you all so much for stopping over here today and leaving your thoughts. it is so meaningful.

Layrayski said...

thank you for taking us along for the walk with you tammie

(we felt glad about the outcome of your election too =)

earthmama said...

for the first time in my life I felt people were finally embracing the differences. I am still high from all the love.

Aimie said...

beautifully said.

Heather said...

oh, Tammie, I don't get a chance to read your posts as often as I'd like, but this one caught my eye and really reached out to me. I can totally relate to your feelings. I moved around so much growing up and have often felt like I've never learned the exact social expertise to hanging on to lasting meaningful relationships, or maybe I, too, am just a little pessimistic about the effort and the disappointment. Case in point, we've been friendly for about a year with a couple my husband works with and just recently learned they are staunch republicans through conversations of late. Now they bag on Obama every chance with completely misguided information. I find it so sad for them that there is not even an inkling of hope for a better future because of a new direction. No optimism whatsoever, only blame that Bush is where he is because of Clinton, thus blaming our current status as a nation on his administration. Sorry for the rant... my point being, I understand where you are coming from - totally. And even being in an eternally RUBY state, I'm happy to not conform. Secondly, like your walk, on the night of the 4th, it was so different... I laid my head on my pillow, stretched my arms out above my head and slept the most peaceful sleep I've had in recent memory. It feels good to hope again.
Thank you for your thoughtful post.